BLACK IN AMERICA: My Response To That

Just to give a small intro. My names is Joselyn and I'm a sophomore at the University of Vermont. Many years back when people would ask me whats you ethnicity I would say Latina but being in a predominately white school can change it all.When people see me the first thing they notice is the color of my skin which indicate black and thats all there is to me. Ever since I realize that I was broken in half between two identities I decided to make it one. I say that I was broken in half between two identities because when people ask me I say I'm Latina but when I see what some of my fellow Latinos do to discriminates Black people I can relate because of the color of my skin so I end up disliking my fellow Latinos for their ignorance. Sometimes I say I'm Black because based on my skin color/Race I am.
So when in my "Diversity Courses" in college I get so upset when we talk about slavery. Some of y'all may think well your Latina why should you be upset out of all people, and I say because my roots are from Africa and I know my entire family line for a fact. This world focuses on skin color to much with out realizing that a person may look like he/she is Black or White but can be a mixture of both or more. I'm a quarter White (German) but it doesn't show at all b/c I'm fairly blended to the Black (African Descendent's/Saint Vincent/ Honduras) part of my family. I didn't acknowledge at the beginning this fact but ever since college I did. So since I know there's a mixture of White in my family my views about Race have changed a lot for the past 4 years.
So with this documentary/research on Being Black In America just made my day because of the Rand's Family who are the perfect example of mines in the sense of one side being White and the other being Black. I honestly don't think that anyone would have a clue of what is like being Black in America and I say this because if we did have a clue we wouldn't have the need to have documentary like this. Further more the huge cap of income between Whites and Blacks wouldn't be there, Education would truly be equal although it supposedly is. I'm not saying that people cant understand but just because you understand something, it doesn't mean you know how it feels like. I'M NOT JUST WHAT YOU SEE AT A FIRST GLANCE, THERE IS MORE TO A PERSON BESIDES THE COLOR OF THEIR SKIN. It's like saying all White folks are the same, there not, it's the same for Black folks theres is much more if you where to try to get to know that individual.
A lot of people talk about the race and all these controversial topics but what they doing to solve it. I know what I'm doing to change the statistics of 50% Blacks that drop out, I'm part of the 40% thats getting and education. I'm also changing statistics of the 5 year difference of life expectancy between Whites and Blacks by making sure I'm healthy and it goes on and on. So WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO MAKE A CHANGE? Now this goes out to my fellow young Black people in order for us to change our standings in America we have to start by getting and education and showing that we are not just Gangsters, Hood Rats, N!$^#@, Criminals all these deceiving names used as reference towards the Black community and please don't tell me that this is not true maybe you don't use them but there are surely a good amount that do, that think we are plain old ignorant and that we would never be cult lol, but guess what WE CAN, WE ARE. If you get offended by this well what can say sorry ah no, the only thing I can say you know what your doing wrong and what you should do to make it right, this is my personal opinion that I have.
All these stereotypes about Black people are not true but there some of us that contribute to it like those who drop out of school. this documentary was maid because of the simple fact that no one knows what is the Black community goes through at times.I was raised in the hood I have seen everything so please don't think I'm just one of those Bourgeoisie "Colored" folk because I'm no where near that for shore but I do want to better my self and thats what I'm doing. Please people watch this show it can give you a big idea of half of the challenges Black people face in America. Regarding my identity I'm Latina/Afro Descendant/ Garifuna so what is your identity?

No Se Lo Que Esta Pasando.......Non lo So Che Cosa Sta Succedendo

Hoy en día estoy mas tranquila con migo misma pero hay muchas cosas que están pasando y yo como lo curiosa que soy quiero saber, pero para que seguir echándole mas braza al fuego? Pero en si como dice mi papa "No me gusta el chambre, pero me entretiene" y ese es mi caso ;). Pero en fin por lo que e leído hay gente que si son tan inmaduros en la vida que no se si me da risa o lastima ay que se le puede hacer. Pero a lo que iba, no se si estoy enchulada o es solo el gustar? Lo que si se es que pasa trabajando como una burra y necesito un nuevo pasatiempo aparte de la red y la televisión . La cosas están así por el momento sin pareja, un buen trabajo, estoy en la universidad, mi padre esta bien de salud gracias a Dios, voy bien en mis estudios, continuo aprendiendo de la vida cada día, no soy una mala persona según tengo entendido pero hay algunas personas que yo le e caído mal, me gustaría tener un revane en la universidad jejejeje pero haber como va eso, en fin estoy bien de salud y todo eso, quiero perder por lo menos 50 libras y esta en forma pero haber como va eso la cosa es que yo no se lo que se esta moviendo hoy en día pero aquí esta La Nota!

Amici

I'm in college and I've come across a lot of Amici/ Friends. I can't believe the different kinds of friends that I have at this point because I'm was insanely immature in the past and although I'm still am I got a better at maturing. I love all my friends and I can honestly say that. especially my brother form another set of parents. At a first glance you can only see the obvious differences that he is white and I'm Latina although when you seem me you think I'm black, and that he is a male and I'm female. My hermano is the most wonderful thing that could happen to a person like me. We have a lot of things in coming and we love to have a great time and to enjoy each others company. The same goes for my other friends I'm so lucky in knowing them so this post goes out to them. another special friend is my other quarter, he is a sexy young male who I don't see as my brother but as a mentor and honest guy. He also keeps me (A hyper, crazy, explosive at times, doubtful person)in check I love him and he knows it. Further on last but not least my sexy female friends they are ,along me the Crazy Trio although out of the three I'm the most silly, crazy, funny one as my homey and la que me gusts lol may say. These are the main folks and the are other friends that they know I adore besides my best friend although I see her more like and elder sister. To all of you wonderful people this is for y'all.

Freshman Year......First Time for Everything

So I'm in college now and wow it has been a year. The first to go to college from my immediate family. The first time I sort of had strong feelings for someone and that was a rocky road that I've overcome but not this first time to realize that I actually don't know what to do. I had a couple of heterosexual relationships all where good but I didn't know until freshman year that I like Girls.Furthermore I'm feeling someone that I shouldn't be feeling because of the simple fact she only and will only see me as a friend which sucks for me because there is no chance for a fling or anything. Also how will I tell my father that I'm "Bisexual" huh?? Way to go Jay. I sometimes reserve my sexual orientation and other things to people even my friends. Especially the friend that I really really like for some reason and I say for some reason because normally you think when someone is not interested at all in you, you get over it or like the person less and in my case its the opposite and even when I'm close to this person my hart beats insanely fast. She knows I like her but she doesn't know the state that she leaves me in every time she's next to me and then leaves. I never well I don't think I disrespected her in anyway and I don't plan to because my father raised me better then that and also she can hold her own if you know what I mean. I love her confidence, her personality,coolness, honesty ahh everything but at the same time it's been getting hard for me because I am aware that nothing will ever happen between us but I still don't know how to act near her as a friend because everything I may say or do can be seen differently by others and also even before I actually began feeling her my actions where being understood differently. Also I'm fairly new at this liking thing and all but regardless of that I don't know what to do. Although she is leaving to study somewhere else maybe I might get over her, but how can I get over someone so beautiful inside and out???? How? I just want that special someone but it looks like it won't be coming anytime soon and although things like this are part of life you don't choose who you fall for or like but it really sucks not to have a chance in any way and for that person to also be a freaking wonderful friend. I'm entering my Sophomore year and withe her not being here for the fall semester I might end up liking someone else but I doubt it she is just to wonderful but hey meanwhile I'm still searching for that special someone and if not searching I'm waiting.... Please be here soon because this young adult who has her flaws and all needs someone to give her hart to besides my daddy and friends I've have had a rough childhood and many responsibilities before the proper age to have them Special someone if you are out there I repeat hurry your ass up ;).